quarta-feira, 2 de dezembro de 2009

All the 4 "Us"

So, I'm not sure what's gonna happen to us. Yeah, us. All the 4 "us" that I can think about.
First Us: I love you. Always have, always will. And now more than ever, I know your essential in my life. I'm sorry I didn't let you do it in your terms, your own time. I was always stubborn and curious, that you know. My head hasn't made a decision yet and maybe, just maybe, by the time it does, I won't need a decision. I might be making this a bigger deal than it is. But then again, you know I'm a master in the art of exagerating. Anyway, I don't want to loose you, to loose us. And I'm sorry for all the times I was mean and annoying. I love you.
Second Us: What the hell is going on with you? Why can't we carry a normal conversation like we used to anymore? Maybe you do have the right to be mad, or to be mean to me, but at least don't change it every five seconds. If I did anything, I'm sorry. Never meant to hurt you. You're that great and never would I imagine that we'd be in this position. We were always just so.. comfortable.
Third Us: I miss us. I miss us so much it hurts. And I don't think I can do much about it. We all have knew people in our lives, and we all have other things to do, other places to go. I knew things would change, we all did. Yet somehow I'm sorry we weren't able to keep it all going. I'm sorry I don't know what's going on in your lives anymore, and I'm sorry it's been so long since I've talked to some of you. I still love you and miss you. And most importantly, I still love us.
Forth Us: It's gonna be a new time for us, won't it? Next year everything is gonna change. We know it. Everything will be "the last one". And I'm not ready for it. I had too many "last one"s. In the end I can only say I never meant to find a group of people that I cared for and enjoyed this much. You all made me laugh, every single day, like I never laughed before. With you guys I found myself, long lost somewhere in cyber space. With you guys, I had the best moments, I had support and love and most of all, I had friendship. Please, let us be us for more than just this last year together? I'm not ready.

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C. disse...

We all aren't ready. And we don't have to be.
Yeah, there are things that are gonna be missed, and we will forget lot of the people we know today. But when we really want something, we really can make it happen. It doesn't have to be goodbye.
Not every beggining has to end with a goodbye.